gestern nacht - in memory of...

i´m running through the world. without seing. without hearing. cause i know i won´t ever hear your precious voice again. my head hurts cause my mind is going crazy and my heart hurts even more. sometimes life is fun without you. but if you think about it concretely...it´s like living without breathing. i´m running through the world, looking for a boy like you. but he should not just own all your positive aspects. he should have all your mistakes, too. he should be your clone. and if i had him i would anyway try to get the original. you were a irreplaceable part of my life. you still are. but i want you to be forever. i konw that you´re obviously too good for me. but a lot of times you were too bad for me, too. maybe that´s why i want you so much. you´re black and white. angel and devil. i just want you to be. to be in my life. cause a life - my life - without you is like a world without a sun. you´re always waiting for something to come, but your world stays dark and black.